I'm backing off

I've said this a lot of times.

I don't think you know.

But somebody knows.

I made a lot of promises but were always broken.

I always end up enjoying the moments... which I think is worth it.

But this time... I'm serious.

I'm gonna keep my promise.

Maybe I saw the sign...

That I should really back off.

I think it will be for the best, especially for me.

Honestly, I'm hurting... no matter how I try to hide and deny what I feel... yes, I am really hurting.

I don't blame you.

It's not you.

It's me.

No promises were made.

I'm not expecting anything (as it should be)

But at the back of my mind, I wish there's something...

Maybe not today or in the new future

But half of me is expecting something.

I tried so hard not to nurture the feeling.

But it keeps on growing everyday.

Now tell me, is there something wrong with me?

Am I assuming?

I don't think I am.

I am backing off.

Now that I can still can.

Coz I might reach the day...

Where I can no longer say no.

Goodbye.