Just stop

I've been contemplating on what to do tomorrow...Do I call you or just send you an sms? Either way, will it make me happy? I know it will make you happy! (That's the conceited me talking.) But, where will it lead us?

So, I did. 

Good thing your phone died after a few rings.

I was saved. 

No drama.

K.

Thanks.

Bye.

*Photo credit to the owner.

Be happy!

Goodluck

I can't help but wish you goodluck! I am as excited or should I say, I am more excited than you are! Hahaha! Early today , I read this: "What ever you decide to do, make sure it makes you happy!" So, I sent you an sms!

I know things will never be the same again. But that's life. You will always be a big part of my life. I have loved you all my life. I don't regret making that big decision to say goodbye 6 months ago... I must admit... I still miss you from time to time, but I kept on reminding myself... Life goes on!

'Nuff said

My first line should have been, "Don't judge me..."

But I changed my mind. I remember what  I read somewhere... "What other people think about you is none of your business." True enough, we can't please everybody. People will always have something to say about us... regardless of what we do.

So, why waste time thinking about them? Life is too short to spend it with energy suckers! 

True that!

Kaloka!

Medyo may edad? Mga lalaki talaga! Tsk tsk tsk!

At least I proved him wrong! Bwahahahaha! 

Andito lang ako

Isa yata ang araw na ito na naubusan ako ng mga salitang sasabihin.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang sasabihin ko para mapawi ang sakit na pinagdadaanan ng isa sa mga pinakamatalik kong kaibigan.

Lumalala na daw ang kondisyon ng nanay nya. Unti-unting nanghihina sa kabila ng patuloy na dialysis at chemo.

Walang tigil ang pag-agos ng luha sa kanyang mga mata at wala akong magawa kundi samahan sya at magdasal.

Walang basagan ng trip!

Photo not mine.

Be grateful

Not everyone is given the chance to live!

Photo not mine.

Repost: When you want someone you can't have

http://thoughtcatalog.com/charlotte-green/2014/07/when-you-want-someone-you-cant-have/

Love from World of Fun

Nabingwit ko sa World of Fun kahapon.

Sana ganito kadali makahanap ng "love", ilang token lang ang katapat.

More travel and adventures

Cheers to more travel and adventures! 👊

How?

Bakit?

Bakit ang sweet mo?

Bakit ang bait mo?

Bakit?

Bakit ambilis ko ma-attach?

Bakit?

Nakakainis.

I give up

I'm not the type of person who gives up...I always try to put up a good fight (at least).

But now, after reading your shitty sms... I told myself, I'm giving up!

I don't deserve this.

You don't deserve a space in my heart and in my life.

Day 21 - June 11

Today is Day 21, I can say that I still think about you from time to time... but... not as much as 20 days ago. 

I really exerted effort to make this hashtag #21DaysToBreakAHabit a success! 

Next time... uhm... will there be a next time? If there is, please stay. ✌️

Day 20 - June 10

My afternoon was busy doing Carl's quiz booklets!

Taaadaaan!

I can smell success. Busy or not, I seldom think about you.

Day 19 - June 9

Eh yung habang may kinakalimutan ako eh may nagpaparamdam na naman!

Ay! Nangungulit pala!

Anu to? Ibang 21 days ulit? Ggggrrr!

Day 18 - June 8

3 days to go!!!

Good job, Chai! 😀

Day 17 - June 7

Nagsimula ng maaga ang sabado ko.

Tinapos ko ng maaga ang mga gawaing bahay (sa office) at taaandaan, I'm free! 

Feeling ko namimiss na ko ng kaibigan kong ito. Kaya ang ending namin, chismisan sa lobby ng St. Luke's at siopao sa 7-11.

Stay Strong, Shinescious! 

Thank God for keeping me busy! 4 days to go!!!

Day 16 - June 6 | Ok lang

Nakakamiss pala yung mga sms/vibe na "Ingat ka."

Nakakatuwa na may nagpapaalala na mag-ingat ka. (tanga ka pa naman! Hehehe!)

Nauna kang huminto eh. Di ka na lang basta nagparamdam. Siguro nawalan ka na ng panahon. (Kahit alam mong demanding ako, syempre, di pwede magdemand!)

Sabagay, bigla ka rin naman nagparamdam eh. So, malamang bigla din ang pag-alis mo sa eksena. (Bakit ba na-surprise pa ko?)

Pero bakit ang pakiramdam ko eh ang pakiramdam mo eh isang sms/vibe mo lang ay sasagot ako? Feeling ko lang talaga. Siguro dahil di ko ugali mang-deadma lalu na kung wala naman talagang issue. 

Wala akong matandaang pagkakataon na hindi ko pinansin ang sms/pm mo. Kahit anu pa yan. Busy ka eh. Pero busy din ako (mukha lang hindi). Ang difference natin e, I make time while you try to find time (di ako sure sa'yo). 

O baka yun na yun. It's your way of saying, I'm no longer interested. Parang gusto ko tuloy i-screencap yung msgs mo e. To remind you of the things you said. On second thought, 'wag na lang.

Pero narealize ko, ok lang din pala kahit wala. Dahil mag-iingat pa rin ako may magpaalala man o wala. Dahil di lang dahil sa "kaniya" umiikot ang mundo ko.

Nag-iingat ako para kay Carl, sa pamilya ko pati na rin sa sarili ko. Panu ko na lang makikilala ang nilaan ni Lord kung lasug-lasog na ko! 😛

Nakakamiss. 

Kaya lang, ganun talaga eh. Di dapat masanay sa mga bagay na pwedeng mawala "any monument". 

Ok lang. OK lang ako. 😊

"People get what they get, it has nothing to do with what we deserve." -Dr. House

Here for you

See my eyes are watching

Hear my heartbeat is pounding

Whatever I do wherever

I go It’s for you

See my days without you

I feel no shame in crying

Whatever it takes you know that

I’ll be with you

Now that I see the light

Now that I touch my light

Now that I realize all I ever wanted is only you

Now that I see the light (and life)

Now that I touch my light (and life)

Now that I realize all I ever wanted is only you

Now that I realize

Day 15 - June 5

I was tempted to vibe him... but no!

I've gone this far... I don't want to put my efforts to waste.

I can do this!!!

Day 14 - June 4

Umulan ng bongga kanina kaya nakatulog ako ng mahimbing.

May panaka-nakang pagsulyap, pero kaya naman.

Sandali na lang! 

Day 13 - June 3

To see muddy or dirty water in your dream indicates that you are wallowing in your negative emotions. You may need to take some time to cleanse your mind and find internal peace. Alternatively, the dream suggests that your thinking/judgment is unclear and clouded. If you are immersed in muddy water, then it indicates that you are in over your head in a situation and are overwhelmed by your emotions.

Day 12 - June 2

The day flew by very fast.

A couple more episodes to watch!

Photo: Not mine

Day 11 - June 1

Spent the early morning watching The Heirs in youtube!

Afternoon was my time with my little man.

And now, I'm doing mommy duties... prepping his notebooks and books! SY 2014-15 starts next monday!

Thanks universe for keeping me busy!

Day 10 - May 31

Sunset at Matabungkay Beach Resort and Hotel.

I just love when the sun sets.

Day 9 - May 30

So far, so good!

I think I don't need 21 days to break "this" habit but will do it anyway!

Day 8 - May 29

Was busy the whole day!

Thanks to brace adjustment date with Marce...

And random lunch date with Shine plus afternoon nap!

Day 7 - May 28

I still miss you but I'm getting by!

Random thoughts - May 28

Kung anu-ano ang naglalaro sa isip ko kanina habang naglalakad ako pauwi: 

1. Anu kaya magandang negosyo?

2. Mag-aral kaya ulit ako?

3. Pano ba ko tataba?

4. Gusto ko tumakbo ulit. Gusto ko din ng bagong running shoes. 

5. Baka ikaw ang soulmate ko.

Sa number 5 tumagal ang pagmumuni-muni ko. Malakas ang kutob ko na soulmates tayo. 

Saka ko na ipapaliwanag. Antok na ko. 

Swak

Eto ako ngayon!

Day 6 - May 27

Unfriend-ed

Siguraduhin mong kaya mong panindigan yan. Dahil hindi ako makikipag-chummy sa'yo pag nakita kita.

Unfriend sa FB = unfriend sa real world.

Para di ka mahirapan ginawa ko na din 'to:

FB, Twitter, Viber = blocked

Hu u ka ngayon sa 'kin!

Photo credit to the owner.

Imulat ang mga mata!

”Kung mahalaga ka talaga sa isang tao, hahanap siya ng paraan para magkaoras sayo… Kung wala siyang oras sayo, wag ka nang umasang mahalaga ka sa kanya.” 

Bob Ong

Bakit?

Ang gulo.

Hindi ko maintindihan.

Bakit ka palaging nariyan?

Hindi ba't mayroon ka ng bagong kasintahan?

Bakit tila hindi mo kayang panindigan ang desisyon mong iyan?

Pinili mo sya... Pero bakit ako ay palagi mong ginagambala?

Day 5 - May 26

I don't know why my internet was down for almost 3 hours (I guess). 

I can't help it. I miss him. I tried so hard not to ping him. But I gave in.

I know he is so down right now. 

I want to hug him so tight!

39th Wedding Anniversary

Today is May 25, 2014 - our parents are celebrating their 39th wedding anniversary! Congratulations, mom & dad! We love you soo much! 😘

I envy them... my marriage only lasted a little over 5 years. I have been separated for almost 6 years now (November 2008). 

Day 4 - May 25

Viber is installing...

I think I'm successful today.

Keep going, Chai!

Day 3 - May 24

I was busy cleaning classrooms. 

Successful.

Brigada Eskwela 2014

Excuses

I found a reason to ping him today. 

Sorry, Day 2 of breaking a habit!

I miss Camiguin!

Oh yeah! I miss you! I am definitely coming back! 

See you soon!

Day 2 - May 23

No viber. No sms. No drama.

I can do this!

It is indeed a happy friday!

Photo credit to the owner.

Day 1 - May 22

I resisted the urge to message him on Viber.

Good job, Chai! 

Paracord bracelets

Red fishtail for me and Spiderman inspired cobra weave for my littleman!

Thanks to bearknotsurvival. :)

Our Php1K out-of-town weekend challenge

Ready for our backpacking adventure!

We are heading to Borawan!

Bus fare: Php 218/pax

After 4 hours or so, we reached Grand Terminal in Lucena City!

One more bus ride to Padre Burgos! P35/pax. 

Travel time - 45 minutes

Tricycle ride going to the pier

Travel time - 3-5 minutes

Php 10/pax

We didn't rent a boat (coz it costs Php 800 round trip)

We waited for a passenger boat that will bring us to Borawan island!

Travel time: 10-15 minutes

Php 30/pax

I can see it!

Touchdown Borawan!

We rented a tent for Php 500 (250/pax)

And the overnight stay cost Php 120/pax

The camp site :)

Goofing around!

Food NOT INCLUDED in our challenge!

Halo-halo to beat the summer heat!

More pics!

After dinner... 

Inuman na!!!

The island is powered by a generator starting 6pm (?). Lights out after 12mn.

Good morning, Borawan!

This is life!

Pictorial (again)

Time to go home.

Shower - Php 20/pax

Boat ride - Php 50/pax

Jeep going to Grand Terminal - Php 35/pax

Bus going to Manila - Php 218/pax

Total expenses (food not included) Php 996.00

Php1K out-of-town weekend challenge = successful!

Watch out for my next adventures!